My marriage is over, but I can

So, my wife of almost a decade and I ended up splitting up a few months ago. The actual break up was nasty. It involved charges of domestic abuse, and unearthing financial, emotional, and sexual betrayal. Long story short, we were happily married and never spent more than 5 minutes apart. Even when we argued, we made up almost immediately. Retrospectively speaking, all the signs of marital abandonment were there, and I feel like I got the short end of the stick, all the way up to my wife speaking to me for the last time when she had me arrested.

I feel exactly now as I did when she dropped the bomb on me: nothing. I feel serene and content in life and memories of my marriage seems ethereal - something akin to a dream - even though it