My dad is a narcissist and also just... nuts
I'm just here to vent really. My dad is very clearly a narcissist. Anything he does is right and perfect and anything else is not good enough. I haven't lived at home for 7 years, so for me it's not really that big of a deal. I mean I don't have to deal with him. But my poor mum does and my heart just breaks for her. She's becoming more and more isolated because literally no one can stand him anymore. Even family don't want to visit because of him (or have them visit). My mum can't go meet with them by herself cos he'd just join and if they refused him entry once it qould turn ugly.
Part of me still loves him. I mean he's my dad. But I also can't stand him and I can never forgive him for how he's treated my mum and brother.
He bought me a remarkable for my birthday and I used it among other things to write a diary (dumb of me, should have waited until I left). On the first page, I wrote a warning that it was my diary and anyone who happened to be reading it and wasn't me should stop. I did it more as a joke than anything, but he actually went into my diary and added to that page. Like... I didn't mind him playing around with the tablet. But that document was clearly named "journal". I don't know if he went past the first page, I didn't ask because if he had, I'd have got too mad and it would have been ugly.
I'm honestly terrified of ending up like him because I see some of his traits in me.