I have lost ME. in having YOU.

It was way back in our grade school days when you first courted me. It took you 1yr and so until I said No and asked you to stop courting me since we were too young. Back then, you were so nice and kind, but after I dumped you, you changed. From a silent nice guy, to a noisy rebellious guy. You left our church group.

Few years have passed, our paths crossed again, it was I think four years later. I saw a totally different you, you got even more bad ass guy look than ever. I've heard that you have lots of vices like alcohol and cigarettes. You look like a punk gangster. literally.

It was in 2007 I guess when we meet again and got in touch with each other due to some circumstances. One night, you called me ,as we talked the conversation shifted and then the issue (the courting) before has been brought up.

I asked you "what happened to you? why did you became rebellious?"

you said "THIS WAS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU REJECTED ME ! that's why my life is a mess!" ..

I asked "how can I help you?"

you said "JUST BE MY GIRLFRIEND EVEN JUST UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY" (which is just one month since next month is his bday)

I said " OK. IF IT IS OK WITH YOU HAVING A GF WHO DOESN'T LOVE YOU"

and there.. you got me Out of guilt, I became yours. ......