Feeling Insecure and could use some reasaurance

@Shortygirl427

Hey there, hopefully you are doing well. There's a few things I would like to point out;

My boyfriend is an over the road trucker. I have issues with trust and have been feeling better the last few days, (One important to thing to understand is that trust issues comes from the relationship you had with your parents, so it's something that has not healed yet and then it will take over on your relationship) but last night he told me that he will be meeting up with a female friend for lunch today. (This probably triggered your anxiety and fear of loss) She is beautiful, and I am feeling nervous. (This tells me you grew up feeling not good or worthy enough to have someone love you unconditionally, so it triggers some of the past hurt you experienced in the past) He has told me before that it is just a friendship, and I do believe him, but I can't help but worry that he'll wish he could be with her instead of me. (Love for you comes with a lot of hurt and abandonment, so it in closeness you will always fear losing the other person and then regulating your emotions makes difficult because you enter primal panic. Love for you also feels like you could be replaced, the same way you felt growing up) I realize this is my anxiety acting up, (The anxiety steems from your past, it takes over your present. It's like a built in alarm we all have so we don't go too far away from our parents, but if we don't learn how to shut it from them then it causes you to enter primal panic at the thought of possibly losing the other person.) but I could use some help with this. (It's very important to deal and heal with those past issues because its going to take over your relationship) Anything anyone could say would be appreciated.