Family relationship is toxic. Can't get out of the house, I am depressed.
I don't even know if somebody is gonna see this. I am in a though situation that I CANNOT control and change at the very moment for obvious reasons... I am actually living off-grid with my parents ( spoiler they're are abusing me and threatens me everyday ), in the middle of nowhere. Yes, that means no social life, no transportation, no money. I have nobody to help me or support me in real life, I feel lonely as ever and there is no way out for me.
I don't have a bank account, I am disabled, I am anti-conformist and even If i had to leave in emergency I couldn't be homeless because of life saving medical attention I need every single day. I am feeling disappointed with my life, I am praying that God or another spiritual figure is helping me because how hopeless I have become. I do not expect people to get it if they never experienced being in my situation ever, but I cannot help myself but to be sad. I just want friends, go out. I can't. There is nothing. I don't even have wifi, I am currently using the phone data and I am sick of living like this and being miserable. I wish I had something to hope for , a lover , or a friend who wants to meet me. Please ... I beg for support or advices 😠Sorry for grammar I'm not english
@MattyGoofball Hello. It sounds like you're feeling lonely and depressed because of your focus on the many factors in your life that are outside of your control. You seem to care a lot about connecting with other people and exploring the world. I know what you mean about wishing for a better or more normal life; the Serenity Prayer proved invaluable to me in learning to redirect my focus to what I could control. Your English is just fine by the way, you communicate your thoughts and feelings well. Feel free to message me anytime if you would like to talk more. I hope this helps and that you find peace within yourself.
@wonderfulSoul4237 this is very accurate thank you ! I cannot seem to be able to find your account