My story
I was a child when it first happened. My aunts boyfriend, my dads best friend. Molested me in a tent when we were camping. I just remembered knowing it wasnt right. I never spoke up about it though.
When i was a sophomore in high school I had my first boyfriend. He was 21, he smoked weed. I thought I was cool. I lost my virginity in June of 2013 during Harry Potter, the mirror of erised scene. It was alright. The second time we had sex, I asked him if it was in. After that it changed. Instead of my consent he would make me smoke with him, my tolerance was lower so Id get higher. Hed rape me. Every time after my second time with him was me being raped. I never said anything.
My second boyfriend it was different. We werent lovey dovey. Sex wasnt joyful for either of us. But we had it because thats what couples do, right?
Everyone after awakened someone inside that craved intimacy. I slept around. Was introduced to new kinks and I accepted it all.
now Im in a relationship having amazing sex where I cum every time. Its weird how I love sex now when I was sexually abused before. It takes the right person.
@HannahPear heya sorry for you not gettign a reply sooner D: but oooh I see whatcha mean with how you think it's weird, but I think you're really strong that after all of that stuff you were able to move forward and feel alright with things with new partners having no problems that's amazing, it really might jsut take the right person :p ^-^ *huggles* <3
@HannahPear - Thank you for sharing your story! I can definitely relate to a lot of what you said and also found myself tending towards promiscuity after my assault - not because I wanted to have sex, but because it felt like it filled a need or if I could make it less meaningful, then maybe the assault also wasn't as meaningful. But I think time and respectful partners both can help make big strides towards a healthier sexuality for a person. To me, there's nothing wrong about lots of or little sex, but it's important that it be wanted and that both parties respect each other, and that makes a world of difference. So glad you have a partner that has helped you find a positive side of your sexuality!
I was abused and eventually raped by a female family friend from about 9 until I was 15. At first I hated it and felt dirty and wrong. When I hit puberty at around 13, I started to love it. What teenage lad going through puberty wouldn't want a sexy 40 something woman... Who would come around our house [edited by Anomalia for overly graphic content] She couldn't get enough of it. She even let me [edited] her while her husband was asleep in the next room
@Tommyw81 - I am sorry to hear that you were abused as a child - no one deserves to have that happen and even though being abused does not make you dirty or wrong, those feelings are natural. It can also be confusing as you get older and go through puberty to have your body react differently and to have mixed feelings about what has happened and what society says a teenage boy must want. I'm proud of you for talking about what happened - I think that's a really big step. Take care
