help
i just wrote this out. do i send it to her? did i fuckk something up? please help. thank you so much. you saved me. from my darkest times. you were there, caring and loving, something that has been an absences in my life and i pushed you away. i can vividly remember, you crying over me. one of the saddest times i had ever experienced. “i just want you to be happy and okay.” while i lay there, heartbroken with no words about to come out. i will never move on, you silly goose. i love you too damn much to. i caused pain, and it hurts me more than it does you. it was the wrong time. i never have experience a “healthy relationship”. not knowing how to act. i tried my hardest to make you happy, but i have failed. i would do anything to see you smile again. i am still waiting for you, and i will never stop. you took all the pain and sadness i have been holding on to and listen to it. i am truly grateful you were that person. my heart told you things that i couldn’t tell myself. you took my soul when you left. you took the favorite part of my life, the person who always brought me joy. it was always you i love you so dearly much
Hoya, thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing this with the community. Not sure if you’ve sent this or not but in my experience it is GREAT to write these letters and then NOT send them. We have to think about how overwhelming it could be fit the other person, how intense. What are our goals in sending this? Is it to make them realise how important they were how much you acknowledge the situation therefore are self aware, is there a part that is emotionally manipulative by thinking this message could change things? Write your feelings out, journal, read it back, maybe even send it to a friend. But we have to respect others space and boundaries to heal n not continue the emotional whirlwind. I hope that helps and isn’t triggering in any way. All the best