Tired...just venting right now.
carefulBeach5245
February 28th, 2021
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It's been 12 years. I'm tired of constantly making the sacrifices. Tired of being told "well I work" etc. I hate the constant tug of war I have with myself with wanting to stay or leave. If Ieave I could be free to breathe but it will also mean missing him. Plus who am I kidding. I don't have the funds to live in my own with 3 kids. I don't know anymore. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. It's the same routine day in and day out. We have never broken up. We've always been together even through the fights. I was never allowed to go out by myself and hang out with friends if I didn't take the kids with me but he was always allowed to go alone.