opening up

Hey there @ghostgirl444 welcome to the community. 

I find this super relatable in terms of how challenging it can be to open up with people even when they want us to open up to them and do show their care towards us, by encouraging us to be more vulnerable, but it's still difficult to do so. 

So I'd really like to assure you that you're not alone in finding it challenging. 

It is clear you have a deep desire to connect with your boyfriend and to share more of yourself with him, but the struggle you're facing in opening up can be really frustrating and painful. It's understandable that your mind feels blank when you try to express your feelings. 

Sometimes people do not realise how their behavior can feel pressuring.

You've mentioned that you've tried to explain this to him, which shows how much you care about both him and your relationship. It is also disheartening when he responds with frustration, especially when you're already feeling challenged and overwhelmed.

Have you thought about discussing these feelings with him in a calm moment? Perhaps it might help to emphasize your intentions and how important he is to you, while also acknowledging how hard it is for you to open up.

Remember, it's a journey to become more vulnerable, and it’s okay to take small steps. You could also start by sharing thoughts or feelings that feel a bit easier, or writing them down first before sharing. Like about your day, whatever's your current thought or about something you like etc.

Please be gentle with yourself okieee, you’re doing your best, and that truly matters. Would you like to talk more about what you think might help you feel more comfortable in this situation? Feel free, of course!💛

@ghostgirl444

It sounds like this is something that is important to him. Maybe you could open a bit at a time in other ways... writing something down not freezing in the moment.   

I think many find when they let out small bits they feel it is easier and is a pressure relief valve sort of thing.