breakup advice
Hiii everyone.
I'm thinking of breaking up with my boyfriend but I don't know how to do it. I know I'll hurt him and I really don't want to do that, especially since I know how much he loves but I have trouble trusting my partner and I keep finding faults in him and push him away. We've been together since June but I broke up with him somewhere in August because I had trust issues and I kept pushing him away. I knew I was being a horrible girlfriend so I broke up with him. He didn't take it well and I felt so guilty and bad about it that I kept talking to him. I told him we should stop talking so he could move on. I told him not to wait for me because I'm not ready for a relationship but I guess I developed an attachment to him and I do care about him, I just don't feel the same way he feels about me and I never did so we got back together. It was good for a little while but then the trust issues started kicking in and I became paranoid about him leading me on or making fun of me, although I doubt he'd actually do that.
He treats me so well and he's exactly who I dreamed of having as a partner but for some reason, it feels wrong being with him. I don't feel happy and I keep pushing him away when he tries to hug me or kiss me. I feel so bad about it and I feel like I lead him on this whole time. This is my first relationship and I don't know how to handle it and to be honest, I don't think I'm ready to be in a relationship with someone. I was hoping someone here could perhaps give me some advice on what to do or how to handle this whole thing. Thank you in advance and I hope you're having a great day 🫶🏼
@pinkhibiscus i'm sorry you have to go through this. no one can control or push their feelings and that is okay. i think it's best now to focus on yourself, build yourself, and learn to love yourself more. i think it's also important to be honest with him, tell him how you are feeling, it's better than wasting time with each other. you can't control how he will react to that, but its certainly better than dragging it out. when you completely build yourself, it will get better. we never know what will happen in the future, and with who we will end up, some couples get together after a couple of years. there is no rule there, we can never know. that is why is it important to live in the present now and become the best version of yourself so that in the future, we will find someone who we deserve and who deserves us.
i wish you the best. (:
thank you!!