Why Cant I Move In?
Its been over a month of you replacing me within 5 days. I cant find myself moving on. My question to you, how did you move on so easily ? Am i that easy to replace? Didnt I mean anything to you? Am i nothing? Am i cursed? Why did you lead me on with high hopes… if you will cheat on me. You might have not cheated or you did but you still betrayed me.
@crimsonShade8192
So it now has been a week longer how are you doing? Has time helped with your thoughts?
I can’t say I am fully healed, matter a fact really far from that. I have been trying to stop talking to him but I still don’t find it in me to block him and cut off my support from him and I would accept to support him in any time of the day. I have been getting close to many people but theyre not him so I am not committing, I refuse to use someone to heal my broken heart. I still wonder how did he move on so quickly but as time passes I am sure that the answer will not come to any use. He broke me but I learned and decided to heal my heart by my own. I know for a fact he will come back as he always does, but my heart is too hard to forgive him and accept him again.
@crimsonShade8192
sometimes personal growth is a lonely path.... maybe he moved on as a band-aid to how he felt.... but even though it seems to be in TV/ movies these on again off again are a waste of time and effort and sometimes it is best to cut ties to end it... we say we won't entertain the idea of them returning but if we have not really moved on we take them back.
I try my best to not entertain his toxic childish game of back and forth. But in the end I know the struggles he has to go through in real life and I am supportive of each part but I hope he knows me supporting his family issues and so on won’t be for too long. I believe his next if she even exists still does not know about this dark part of him. And with him concealing it I do not see it going far. And again against what I said I found a guy which I want to move on and start from scratch this. But is it fair if I still did not move on fully from my ex? Thats why I am keeping my distance.
@ToughTiger6481 he texted me yesterday and was trying to get me to stop the two words texts. He told me his new girlfriend is pregnant now. And told me if I am wondering that he got a better job with better pay, he will buy a house and he bought a new car. And was shocked when I said “I am not wondering”.
What’s his logic?
@crimsonShade8192
Sounds like ..In his mind you are following him and need to know his details almost like he wants you to be jealous. Hopefully now with a baby coming he can focus on trying to keep that relationhsip going and not trying to keep you as his back up plan
@crimsonShade8192 So sorry you are going through this. Lack of closure and seeing people behave in a way that seems harsh can be tough to deal with. I hope you are able to begin your healing journey soon.