Scared and Worried
I have been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years now and we are kind of long distance but not really. When we started dating I was going to a community college and still lived at home. He lived an hour and a half away from there. It was really hard to be able to find the time to either drive up and see him or have him drive to me. Then, I transferred schools to a 4 year college that was only 20 minutes away from the school he was going to. He decided not to live on campus anymore to save money after the first semester and so he was again an hour away from me, but he had to commute to go to class everyday and I would go home with him every weekend so I got to see him all the time and got to be kind of spoiled with time I got with him. Now that it is summer I am back at home and it is much harder to see him. He is also going to be going to a different school that is near where he lives instead of the one near my college town. I am moving to my college town soon, but he will no longer be commuting in the area and we will both have classes and jobs to worry about. I am scared that we will hardly ever get to see each other as we will still be an hour away from each other and sometimes I think it could be easier to just end the relationship, but the only thing I want is to be able to come home to him every single day. After every bad day I bawl my eyes out because all I want to do is hug him and cuddle him to sleep because it would make all of my worries go away but instead I have to come home to an empty bed and keep living without him.
It's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed and longing for the comfort and support of your boyfriend, especially after a difficult day. It's important to communicate openly and honestly with each other about your concerns and to explore potential solutions together. Consider discussing your feelings with your boyfriend and brainstorming ways to maintain your connection despite the distance. This might include scheduling regular video calls, planning visits when possible, and finding creative ways to stay connected, such as sending each other letters or care packages.