Relationship stress

Hello guys, i joined this not too long ago and i feel as if im back on here from time to time. And it's always the same reason. I'm 20 living with my boyfriend of almost 4 years. He's the most loving teddy bear i have ever met. The issue is that.. we dont quite understand each other. He also has a bad track record of keeping empty promises.

Today, i called him out for blowing through 3 packs of 8ths. He didnt blow through it himself he did it with his friend. Now, i was at work and i needed an uber ride home and i asked him if i could use his card he said yes, BUT he also said "dang i cant get any more now". So naturally, that made me feel weird because how are you so comfortable blowing three packs of that with your friend with no complaints, yet i ask u for an uber and it's like wow. I paid him back his 9 freaking dollars.

(i never ask him for anything at all guys)

also made me think, in the past 4 years that we've been together i've only received 2 presents. Which is a ring and a necklace.

i just feel like it's not fair because i do things for him.

He says he busts his butt at work. But what about making me feel special? When he comes home i make sure theres food, when showering i wash his hair, when i see something that he might like (food, clothes, etc) i get it just because but for some reason he can't do the same thing.

sadly, i am also tired of running the relationship and always constantly leading it. Im the doer, the organizer, the planner. He's the follower and throws money at it.

anyone at all is welcome to share their advice.

Especially ones who have went through this. Please i need help.

because at this point i'm not sure if im just being childish or what.