Marriage struggle

Hello,

We met 9yrs ago, been married for 8yrs, same age as our child.

Everything was great up to the end of pregnancy, then everything changed.

I took a long parental leave and then managed to work remote for a year, this before covid. During that first year we managed well, but no sex life. I did not make a big deal out of it because I know we had to go through an adaptation period. She said that she needed to be relaxed, and so in the subsequent 3years we went intimate only 3 times during summer breaks. Then nothing since then. It has been more than 5yrs now. Her levels of anxiety went down but anger increased. I think the worst for me is to be insulted, being called Idiot or looser, especially in front of our child. Sometimes physically, but nothing I cannot take. She mainly complains about me getting fat, but my self esteem went down during those years. He calls me *** if I try to touch her. There has not been hugging or kissing for many years.

Other than that we tried to meet some goals, we bought a house and ensure our child gets the best education possible. I just want my child to grow within a family, and I avoid as much as I can fights in front of her. If i try to speak about it to my spouse, she would just say that I play the victim card and should worry about more important things.

I will try to focus on myself and loose weight but I would have loved my child to see what is to be a real loving family.