Im confused if im inlove

Hi,

im (girl) probably inlove w my best friend (girl). We talk a lot and we spend time together a lot too. We are friends 4+ years.

now we started living together and im loving our time together, we spend a lot of time doing stuffs together. few months ago she met someone and now she is talking to him more and they most likely like each other. i think they will end up together, the situation is hard but i think they will soon.

And i really want rhe best for her, i would die for her bcos she is really an awesome person.. but at the same time it kills me to know that she likes someone else and she talks about him, smiles at his messages.. now she is even spending some time at work and im at home alone. i also have friends, but i just love being w her..

im realising i probably have deeper feeling for her, i dont know if its love or what.. but i feel anxious a lot.

2 years ago i felt like that too and i told her (drunk) i probably like her more, she told me she loves me like bestie and that was it. i told her haha i was drunk.

But now, i feel this again.. we werent in relationships, so the first time not being just two of us is scaring me.

If there is someone in similar situation, feel free to text me. we can discuss it haha. i need to talk about it.

But i know i wont tell her.