I can be selfish.

More then once in my life, I had feelings for a girl and she loved me....as a friend............

Then I got distant (she got a bf)

Then I cut contact, sometimes in mean ways.

I have this negative thinking that if she has a bf she has no need for other friends and all that I've done to get close her or be there for her when her other friends weren't were all meaningless. That is terrible of me. That is terrible of me.

I'm working on changing it but, it will be a great emotional challenge for me.