Deep depression & anxiety!

I'm going through a horrible marriage where I've been verbally mentally and somewhat physically abused by him and his parents that I'm staying with until I get on track.his parents are into the church, but they are verbally and mentally abusive, and he's been abused since he was a child. His parents are really hurtful although were staying with them until we get on our feet. It's affecting us. He had an emotional affair with a woman. He had no chance with her on Instagram- she has millions of followers. He wanted to runaway with her because we were having marital issues. He also wanted to save her from being a thot. He wants a woman that's big busted. He suggests that I tried different supplements to grow mine. He's checking out a big breasted woman one time we were out in public. I was hit once in the 8 years we were together, and got in a big fight and I pushed him. We have a 3 year old and I think he's a mostly damaged from all the yelling we do. I had emotional breakdown and passed out in the car today. Migraine is very painful too. I have severe muscle aches.