life after you left

I was engaged to the man I thought was my soul mate. The relationship was the best relationship of my life for a time. It ended up being an emotionally damaging relationship. I was very depressed because of this relationship. The day that it ended I was the happiest person on the face of the planet. Unfortunately, a month later I let myself go back to him because I still thought he was the one. This was the biggest mistake of my life. He ended up being emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive. He was mentally ill and I do not blame him for much of it. When the relationship finally died, I was afraid of everything. I never felt safe. Even if I was 100 miles away from him. I cringed every time I saw the kind of truck he drove. I would vomit because of how stressed and fearful I was. For two years after the relationship ended I dated lots of men. I never really felt anything for any of them. They were all dead end relationships. I got into heavy drinking for a while there. But about a year and a half into this all, I finally started to heal. It took me hitting rock bottom after both of my grandmothers passed to finally realize how damaged I was and to finally seek help. A year and a half after this relationship I was finally coming to a healthy place. I started exercising. Finding new interests. And now. I am in the most healthy relationship I have ever been in. I am the happiest I have ever been. I am a healthy person on the inside and out. And finally. My life seems to be looking up. My future is very bright.