This is a feeling I wouldn’t wish on anyone
I don’t understand How can a man sleep at night and be happy sleeping next to someone he kept secret.. knowing that he ghosted and hurt someone else when they were honest with him, always checked on him. Always gave him attention when he didn’t give me the time of the day. Honestly it shouldn’t have been a surprise that he would do this to me because I’ve been noticing bad signs with him. I just we would be closer. Never thought I would be treated like I never meant anything. And having no choice but to forget and move on is the worst way to move on when there’s so much u have to say to the person and can’t because they won’t bother responding to anything you say! But all I can do is blame myself and at the same time forgive myself for being stupid.
Don't be so hard on yourself. I feel like you saved ur self from something that could have gone even more wrong had u continued that relationship so be proud of yourself that you were there for yourself. It's okay to make mistakes ur only human. And don't expect anything from the other person pr any kind of realization. Had the person realized it u wouldn't have left that person in the first place. That person is messed up and u can do nothing about it, just love yourself.
I can relate to your situation alot, this pain is unreal and I cry everyday knowing I gotta feel this for at least a year, everyday....good luck and keep your head up...
@Shaena1121 - I am so sorry you have to go through this and I am so sorry such people exist within the world, you have a community supporting your every step from now - a community who understand you and will walk with you through the pain into your healing.
I want to remind you that such situations make us question ourselves but in reality it was never us - we can't control the actions of others, but we can control how we react to the evil they throw at us. I can relate to you very much and I wish I could take away your pain because no one deserves to be treated like garbage but that is exactly what he has done - he has made you feel like something that he can throw away - now dear Queen - the best payback is to pick yourself up and make a 'new you' out of this pain and when he comes crawling back (oh he will, they all do!) you will be too far gone, prioritizing yourself and your own development. Reminder: you deserve someone who chooses you - every single time.
I need you to know that if someone doesn’t “choose you” then they aren’t for you - no matter how much you love them or you think you can’t live without them - if they do not choose you for every second of the day for the rest of their lives - that is not love. Love is true, love does not end and love should not be painful. This is where you start again and you grow. Respect is everything. You deserve it. This is the time you layout your standards and at any cost do not lower them for anyone. It’s your life and you have EVERY RIGHT TO LIVE IT BY YOUR STANDARDS.
Sending love ❤️