Newly Single

I was determined to leave him. Our baby is 2 months old, I have a 6 & 5 year old from my previous, also abusive, marriage.

I am so ashamed I let myself get dragged into someone like that again. I am so embarrassed I allowed my kids to be around a man who did not redirect them or myself. I'm worried I did more damage trying to wait and save money than just leaving earlier.

I feel like there's something about me that men just like to break. Or maybe something inside me is just as rotten as they are and that's why I attract dysfunctional monsters who destroy the ones they should love.

I'm so humiliated and confused. I'm 27. I should have this figured out. And every time I screw up, I'm screwing up my kids. And it kills me.

But at least I can start over.