Love Addicton

I think i am addicted to love. I am trying to let go the most especial person that i meet in my live. This person should me how wonderful life can be, respect my illness and had tried to do his best to fix me. I love him, but apparently i am a love addict. I place too many expectations on the other. I dream and delude myself with the impossible which leads to the other person to a depletion. So he made me understand my pattern of destructive and abusive relationships. I think that i hurt him. He hurt me too. He is the most beautiful mystery of my life. I dont know nothing about him. I dont know his complete name. I dont know where he lives. I think he is married. The story of our love is beyond any movie i have ever seen. He was the only man in the world that should me what loving a woman really means. He made me feel alive without touching me with a single finger. I feel like i lost the love of my life because of this horrible disease. I cant judge him, and neither he. What costs me more is accept my mistakes. I was naive, i did not protect me, I threw myself, heart and mind and soul to the Love i was expecting to fulfill me. It did not happen. I push, he push, we pushed ourselves to the breaking point. So i am by myself. And i think he went back to his wife. And well, thats life. Right? How can i let him go, without feeling so hurt? How can i move on, placing him in my heart for ever, but not the way i planned? Is there anytime in my future life where i can understand everything that happened to me? I hope so. But it sure made me feel better putting this on words. If you read this, thank you . Cheers to all broken hearts . I really hopes it gets better!