I feel played.

I was with someone when I met this guy, Mr. J. Now Mr. J and I hit it off immediately. I knew from the second I met him, I wanted to be with him. He told me day in day out he wanted me. So finally, we did it. I left that guy for Mr. J. We had a great month, but things got stressful and we took a break. Mr. J came to me begging to get back together. I fell for it. We had another amazing month, when he straight told me he didn't want a relationship and he dumped me. Well I'm still in love with him. I still want him. I still miss him. And he doesn't want to talk to me. He says we'll be friends, but I don't wanna be friends. I wanna be his girl. He begged me to be his girl, and then left me high and dry. Like he said whatever to get me, and then dropped me.

What scares me is if he comes begging again, I'll just take him back. Because I let him play me before, and I love him so much, I'll let him play me again.