I broke up with an abuser

When my boyfriend and I met he was the perfect man. He was caring, loving.. I couldnt believe it. Felt like a dream! We talked for 10 hours the first time we had a phone call! We had a lot in common, we already imagined a life together.

But soon he changed. He started being offended by small things, calling me liar for no reason, being overly jealous. We had huge fights but then he'd apologise. Fight. Apologise. Fight. Apologise..

I was too coward to face that tornado when he's angry and I got caught once with a lie. Not proud of that but I was scared. So then he had in his hands the proof to doubt me, manipulate me, hurt me.

I loved and cherished him with all my heart. But he broke me down physically and emotionally. My tears never meant anything to him. My pain. Why would love an abuser? I left him three days ago in one of his crazy moments.. But my heart is aching. Why push someone out of love like this? When they gave their all to see you smile.