Finding happiness again
Im struggling with sadness, grief, shock and anger. Im trying hard to move forward but get stuck in the cycle and ruminating.
For the past year I was the support person for my husband of 10 years after he made several suicide attempts and was placed in a psychiatric hospital. When he was released he worked hard to help himself; he saw a counsellor every week, took his meds and put some great healthy habits in place but a few months ago he gave it all up. He said the counselling didnt help and stopped taking his medication regularly, he then quit counselling completely and joined a mens group instead.
Then he decided he couldnt get better living in our family home or with me. He simply came home one evening and told me he was leaving. He walked out on everything including all financial responsibilities. Im left trying to sort the property, child, animals and finances. I feel abandoned and stupid for not seeing it coming.
How do I move on? How do I see happiness in the world again? Im emotionally exhausted. My best friend simply walked away. I know there are people worse off than me.
I see you are dealing with so many emotions there from a loss that would be hard to explain in words. It would be hard to move forward when it is easier just to get stuck of remembering and feeling sad.
I see that your husband was in a lot of pain and tried many ways to help such as therapy, medication and your support. I noticed also you mentioned he is also a best friend so Id feel heart-broken losing such a close person.
I see that you have been left with the responsibilities and it is not easy. It would feel like you are abandoned and why didnt I see it before would go through your mind. How to move on, guess quotes say with time but that is easier said than done right? Guess you go through stages where you deal with the anger, shock and then start to accept things that happen. Happiness would seem like only a word since you are emotionally exhausted. You may feel your problem is small but it is just as important. Feel free to message back here or message me 1 on 1.
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