Unfamiliarity (trigger warning)

who am I, could this be me?

ive grown to hate the one I see

Ive done her wrong, caused so much pain

and still a grudge against her remains.

I should be sorry, I treat her unfairly

but am I regretful? maybe, barely..

looking in the mirror, I see defeat in her eyes

and still I have yet to apologize..

I can’t bear the heaviness of my self hate,

but to love this person seems a chore too great

who am I, could this be me?

this isnt the person that I used to be.

always wearing long sleeves, heart solid ice

never believing the number on the scale will suffice

who am I, could this be me?

despite my wishing, I am she.