Silence

Distance is lovely, the silence is comfortable

couldn’t say “help me” so instead said nothing at all

I needed you beside me, but I couldn’t tell you

would have explained why, but I hadn’t a clue

The silence is thick, the quietness heavy

I wanted to speak, but my fear didn’t let me

tried to be strong, but I was too weak

I let the silence win; and I didn’t speak

Not that I dislike, or even distrust you

its only that care is an experience that’s new

the silence has been my home for so long

that I’m sometimes convincing speaking up would be wrong

the silence is thick, quietness oppressive

the dark, though familiar, is oh so depressive

someday I hope I can make the choice

to end the silence, and lift my voice.

-rain