I'm scared
I'm scared of so many things right now.
I'm scared I won't get as good of a grade as my mom wants me to on the regents
I'm scared because I won't be as good as I was when I was younger
I'm scared because things got so much harder
I was scared of trying to make a U-turn on the 55mph roads
I was scared because I hadn't driven that fast before
I was scared because we were supposed to be there, we just missed a small turn
I'm scared of missing out on things
I'm scared of my friends pushing me away
I'm scared of people not paying attention to me and being ignored
I'm scared of what my mind is doing
I'm scared of loving myself
I'm scared of hating myself
I'm scared of my mind telling me to just yell at her
I'm scared that I can't stand her anymore
I'm scared of getting older
I'm scared because we might not stay friends if we aren't in close proximity
I'm scared that if I get better that I might not need him
I'm scared because if I don't need him, who will he have left
I'm scared because if I don't need him who will I have left
I'm scared to going to college, even though that's still two years away
I'm scared to make decisions
I'm scared to not make any
I'm scared of having the weight of the world on my shoulders
I'm scared of not having any part
I'm scared to keep on living but also
I'm scared of dieing
I feel so scared but I'm only 16
Does it really get better
Or does it just get bearable?
@AvyIsKing
@Iamspoons Hey there!
I am so sorry you are struggling so much at such a young age! If poetry is a way for you to deal with it, then keep writing. But it does get better, trust me. All of us are afraid of many things. Dieing, being left out, missing out of stuff, etc., are all part of it. Some of our fears fade with time and get replaced with new ones. It's all part of life.
The important thing to remember is that you're not alone in these feelings. Many people go through similar experiences and find ways to cope and thrive. Try to focus on the small victories and moments of joy. They can provide a sense of accomplishment and hope. Try talking to people about your fears. Talking helps a lot.
Remember, it's okay to feel afraid or uncertain at times. These feelings do not define you, nor do they determine your future.
Keep writing and sharing. And continue to believe in yourself and stay strong! :)
Hi Spoons. A very thoughtful poem. I don't think there are or were many 16-year-olds who
were not scared at that age. A new future as an adult, uncertain quite how to fit in now.
The good news? The uncertainty does end and for the better.
