Competitor dearest

Dear competitor

Wherever you are,I wish you well

You are unnamed,I hope you dwell

In happiness, the joy in yourself

I wish you find the peace that you are looking for

I wish you well.

I hope you find the security in yourself

I haven’t found mine yet

I am not worth your envy

Your agony,your misery

My mind wonders,My fingers linger

Over the spoon that I am supposed to eat

It has been days,I have been starving my soul and my body

It has been days,I haven’t slept well on my own.

Pills help me or harm me, nevermind

My hope shattered,my heart scattered all over

The voices in my head grows stronger and stronger

I can’t concentrate, I can’t do anything anymore.

My mind’s a catastrophe ,I am helping myself

Saving me from myself

The tapping of the pen,the striking of the ink

On a paper that’s smoother than my skin

I jot down, yet it won’t come out

I know the answer ,I swear

I just couldn’t get it out.

Pass through me,pass by me

I wish you find whatever you are hoping for 

I wish you well

I don’t take your envy,I will wash it with my kindness

I hope you get better soon,I hope you find the peace that you deserve

But I won’t, I am not the one who you should compare yourself to

Competitor dearest,let me go.

    Sincerely, Sonia.

This is an emotional poem that I wrote when a person whom I thought was my friend turned out to be jealous and competitive when I was going through a lot.Exams are stressful especially when you have to battle your own storms in life.

This Poem not only show empathy but kindness for the person who envy and hates you!