What a BPD Episode Looks Like (video)
When I found this video first time, was by chance. And I was going through a period of complete numbness, but watching it.. hit me hard and realistically. Today I found it again, by chance (it's a pattern) and thought I'd share it here - because I think, sometimes when our mind is at its lowest places, we may feel we are alone. That we're only ones feeling this way or no one will understand us. And that's okay, it's our mind just screaming out how much we're struggling, trying to find a way to define it. And for me, seeing someone go through what I have gone through multiple times, made me feel empathy for her, feel like she shouldn't have to go through it.. and indirectly, empathy for me. Sometimes we need to just have empathy for ourselves. Thus the tears that came while I was watching it, but moving on!
I don't know if this will be uncomfortable for someone, it doesn't have graphic images or graphic descriptions - only a video footage and the girl explaining what was going through her mind in that time frame, as much as possible. But if you feel unwell while watching it, please remember to self-care, just in case
It does give also a perspective to people who don't understand what it feels like, the way she explains it. My favorite part is at the end, when it 'ends' and she says
"And then all of sudden, I feel better. It's like I'm waking up. And I remember I am me. I'm Brittany. I'm succesful. I work really hard, I don't allow my mental illness to stop me - my mental illness will never be the reason I don't succeed. It will always be a part of my story but it will never define me as a person. And I go about my bussiness"
What are your thoughts on this video/experience?
How did you feel seeing it?
@eviesweet This is another video, an award winnign short movie, and it's quite on the rails. TRIGGER WARNING tho, the video explains really well how borderline feels and acts like in a person, and for a borderline it might be a dangerous amount of genuine emotion to deal with. proceed with caution and enjoy.
I really enjoyed the video you posted and i had to come up with this, anything to spread awareness and dissolve the stigma around BPD.
All the best!
it looks like a panic attack but instead of lots of physical symtoms their all inside ur head
@funfettifrosting That's an interesting comparison, haven't thought about it that way for sure!
@eviesweet
seems like me
@eviesweet Thank you for sharing! I am still coming to terms with my diagnosis so while watching I was telling myself "That is not me, I don't have BPD". I am not much of a crier but the more videos I watched the more I could relate. Now thinking about it, I have had crying spells when stressed or depressed. This help me take one more step to acceptance so I thank you!
Angie
@RedheadedAngie Glad to hear it helped you take that step in acceptance! 
