(New here, hello) DID and NPD

Hello (kinda venty?)

I've been struggling really bad with my DID and NPD lately....

I feel like I'm faking it all...I mean, I already know that the main issue with DID is self-doubt but I mean it, it sucks, I feel awful...

And NPD hasn't been treating me too kindly either because some of my headmates are NPD holders or are narcissistic...They constantly bother me and all they do is tell me how "cool" they are or how they're "the best" and it's so annoying. I hate having the lack of empathy because I feel like I'm just pitying others or not helping them enough and it just feels awful...idk what to do anynore... sorry, there's not much to it, I'm just tired of keeping it all in