Self image fluctuation
I know that BPD is characterized by an unstable self image and I would say it’s one of my major symptoms. I really struggle to feel like I am meant to be here, especially when stressors become high. I don’t understand how people are able to maintain self confidence. Some days I’ll feel like I’m beautiful, smart, and capable and then other days where I feel like I don’t even understand why I’m here. I always thought I was a bad kid and now as an adult, I feel like a bad person especially when I’m unable to handle the ebbs and flows of life. I don’t know how people allow themselves to make mistakes without beating themselves up or overthinking every move.
I also can’t wrap my mind around how people are able to deal with these fluctuating feelings! It seems like my feelings are just SO BIG especially when I realize how others react to things. Any advice on how to deal with this… would be great. Is it going to be like this forever? Am I going to feel like this forever?
@Makaykay167 Hi there,
It is okay to have big feelings! There is nothing wrong with that and noticing them when they arise is such a great quality to have. You can always take it a step further and try to process these feelings and try to understand why you are having them... it might help managing them?
It is also okay to feel that the ebbs and flow of life are hard to handle at certain times, because everybody experiences this to some extent, which is completely normal.
You are worthy of having self-confidence and available to manage yourself if you choose. Your disorder does not define you and you are worthy of achievement! If there is anything you need, please reach out, I hope that this helps,
E