My BPD and choices.

Part of my BPD I lack of holding friendships. I am very quick to getting people to like me and people are impress by me but to keep them around seems mission impossible.
I recently had to face a friendship with someone and she and I became very close but it was not healthy at all, there were things she expected from me and I could not do that. Because I could not give her what she wants she stop speaking with me. I decided that I won't allow this to upset me. I have always lost friends and so I'm use to it. But the choices I make effect not only me but others around me. Before when a friendship would end I'll shut everyone out but this time I chose not to do this.
I don't have friends but there are people who care about me. I choose to be happy even when I feel broken. I choose to make jokes even when I feel sad. Instead of Laying in bed I'll get up and run or I'll get to my laptop and listen to some music
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The choices I make will have an effect on my life. Some choices I make will make me happy and some will make me sad and some will make me angry but the best choice I can ever make is taking care of me and my needs in that way I can manger my BPD and build healthy friendships.