I think I have bpd... maybe
Basically I don’t know what I’m feeling. I don’t know who I am and I am ruining lots of things. I constantly doubt my relationship the second I am not physically receiving love or some type of reassurance, which means I constantly believe that I am unlovable. This either makes me mad or sad and it changes multiple times in a day. I am constantly finding myself morphing into what o think people want out of me so I genuinely don’t even know who I am as a person any more. Anything and everything can send me into an overly emotional frenzy and I can’t predict what emotion may come out of it. I don’t know if I’m making up connections because I want some kind of “answer” to my problems or if bpd is something I’m actually living with and not making up for attention, even though I don’t get any kind of attention from it because I keep most of my outbursts to myself and don’t even know where they come from.