Art Therapy?
I just recently started art therapy and it's been somewhat helpful sometimes to just get in the mode of making something. I think the best thing has been my new counsellor who I seem to connect with really well. This connection however is making it ten times more difficult for me to keep going. He doesn't seem to be running away, but I feel like I should because I'm clearly way too attached and don't know how to deal with these overwhelming, confusing and complicated emotions. He seems to want to keep going and working through things but I'm worried he doesn't understand the intensity and crazy feelings - I don't even understand them. I feel like I'm on a cliff and can't figure out what to do. I don't want to lose the connection, I think this could really work, but at the same time I'm terrified and don't think he really knows how things are for me - and if he did then he really would run. All of this just reminds me how crazy I feel and I'm not sure what to do. Has anyone else had a similar situation - I know it's a weird one but thought I'd ask? I've been through a lot of therapists. No one wants to work with someone with bpd......and I found one that has and fits me well. It hasn't been that long either but working on stuff just stirs up the hornets nest - I'm terrified the process will be my undoing.