Avoiding people with the intention

Worked in retail for almost 7 years. Had a rough patch after the pandemic and protesting, which I had to work through, was a little wild near me. Want to progress and move on in life, however, the memory of me being trampled by people inside the store made it difficult to open up to people, feel like they don't care. Happy to be alone, but it's not normal. I have financial goals and personal goals, wish I can finally open up and share my life, have trust issues concerning people, not so much of judgement.

Personal goals that overlap happiness with people. Right now it's all about money and not love or compassion. Have a hard time opening up after the pandemic.

When I see people I just read the word "deception" on them. It was a retail trick that stuck in my head due to theft and vandalism that would occur, not accounting for numerous of other crimes that would occur.

The work side is stuck in my head, need to learn how to disconnect. Any advice?