Hard to stop certain urges..

Idk how to explain it without it coming off weird.. My counselor says it's a form of self sabotage and might stem from past childhood trauma or something but idk why I enjoy the risk and thought of someone wanting the worst for me.. I've been having the urge to give my passwords and personal information like pictures of my credit cards and stuff.. I know it's not the best thing to do but idk why I continue to have the urge to do so.. My counselor says to avoid it but it's hard at times.. Sorry I'm sure it all comes off weird.. Idk why I enjoy the risk of it all so much..sorry for such a long post