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@comfyblanket90 that's a awsome idea ❤❤ I hope it works well for you ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤

#Day 1 Review :

*I half-read the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus", and I got to know how men and women react to same situation and what kind of support do they need...read something at stretch after a long while...felt good.

* I made a friend by helping him in a small thing : small act of kindness can go long ways...gentle reminder!

* Decided to start this thread and did it! 😊

# Day 2 Review:

* Suddenly my train ticket to my college from my hometown got confirmed unexpectedly..!! Instantly packed my bags and went off !!

* Attended an online meeting while travelling with so poor network, without any blunder !

* Asked for help from others when in need (some facts about me : I never ever ask for help unless things go out of control and I'm unable to do it on my own. Still, I mostly don't ask because of fear of rejection... It was a big win over myself to ask for help with the risk of being rejected.)

* Openly expressed my need to be included in a group for college project...knowing that it means that I have no friends, or even if I have friends, they didn't include me. It was a BIG STEP I repeat to be vulnerable and ask for what I need in public.

* Asked people to leave who were trying to force themselves to share my berth unethically...it was really difficult for me to muster up courage for what I felt was right even though everyone around me sat silent ( which I got to know was because they were in the wrong too..!)

Hello guys this is my new account, comfyblanket90! My account got deactivated so this is my new account!

#Day 3 Review :

* I asked for what I need to my co-passengers and they helped! A gentle reminder to ask for what I need. Instead of tiring myself to death doing everything myself!

*  Asked for directions to exit platform even though I have travelled here before!

* Reached my hostel finally, at right price safely. I'm getting better at travelling alone! 😊
* Followed all instructions given by mom while unpacking stuff & reaching hostel!

* Had breakfast, freshened up, bath, hairwash, followed all self-care routine. Proud!

* Had the guts to enter classroom late!

* Handled confrontation with teacher peacefully with the teacher.

* Talked to classmates, asking about themselves & seeking help when needed.

* Was in touch with my emotions and expressing myself better & honestly.

* Avoided toxic people, & talked my health issues to whoever talked to me.

* Made a new friend. Went all clumsy (dropped my metallic bottle which sounded like thud & caught everyone's attention, acted all weird), but DIDNT APOLOGIZE for being nervous.

# Day 4 Review:

* Woke up on time, did all routine even after feeling unwell.

* Gave all clothes to laundry, & convinced laundry guy to take more clothes than permissive amount 😉. (A note to self for convincing others : ask for what you want with due respect, clarity & reasoning)
* Paused before giving answers, asked to repeat sentences, admitted that I didn't hear/understand what was said, was vulnerable & true to myself without attaching unnecessary overwhelming emotion (Mind you : I was a very sensitive, emotional person who used to cry after every negative statement)

* Finally Went to 3 banks for enquiring about opening a bank account! (I was very skeptical of how I would be treated, & after reading reviews on google about the bank branches, I was sure I would be misbehaved as well...but no! All of them were very kind, helpful, & finally my personal bank account would be open from tomorrow.. bravo!! 🥰)

* Arranged my almirah, did group stuff, gave my opinions on things that seemed important.. blessed!

* Took rest, listened to devotional stuff, saw funny videos, took full support from my parents, & following everything they said took me to right path.😊 They encourage me to do things I feel hopeless about, & things turn out great!
* Self-focussed, I'm trying my best! Hooray!

P.S. : Sneeze, sneeze! Caught cold! 😷 Suggest few things your advice is really needed, I took meds, taking warm water, warm stuff, clove flower, turmeric water, rest, accupressure, morning tea..what else can be done? Feel free to suggest here!

# Day 5 Review:

* I opened my bank account on my own finallyyyy.

Ok, the afterpart is going to very sensitive...please listen to me I want to be heard...

I got really ill, so ill that I questioned life & death. Death is unknown, we don't know what happens after death, and if everything ends, how does it feel? It's scary. And then, I questioned life. We hurt people, get hurt too. What's the use? You get physically, emotionally tired... you cry for help, you cry and cry some more...but nobody to understand you. It feels as if however hard you try to explain.. your agony will never be heard. They just dont get it. And you wail in thin air, your words getting dimmer and dimmer as your throat gets tired with expression. You go for money, losing everything in the process..but wait? what was yurs that you lost? you never owned anything. you were jusr dancing on the tunes that someone that was fed in your head. People come, people go. You think the love will remain same. It doesnt. You think, and hope..that maybe someone will genuinely care about, they dont. They just dont, they just dont. Y=Then whats the use of it all? I pray and pray everyday, to just let me out of this agony, nothing happens. Its just that you get crushed and crushed until you are crushed to death. This meaninglessness eats me. I get drowned in it. Your life's decisions aren't taken well with family, everyone hates you for being the way you are, what good in the world is it for being hated, ignored, taken advantage of, hurt...whats the use?? 

* Blocked my ex when we replied to how he was but didnt reply to explain his behavior, or his feelings towards me. Again no closure.

* I'm scared I have lost all hope. 

# Day 5 Review :

* Talked to my dad about getting a new screen guard for my phone..he suggested the best way possible and it worked! Asked the right person for the right thing!🥺

* Tried & tested online transactions ON MY OWN successfully! 😊

* Made another account on my own! 😊

* Had fight with ex until again I blocked him!

* Started ways to earn money!

Hello everyone, I am shifting the thread to another thread...I guess I lost track of the real purpose of this thread..and this became a toxic positivity thing...so please go through Another day without him 💔 thread, in Relationship Stress community to stay tuned.

@comfyblanket90 This is a wonderful initiate Comfy and quite a brave step! thank you for trusting us with your struggles and emotions...it can be quite difficult to be vulnerable with someone let alone a whole community of people after you have been treated so poorly by the world around you! I'm so proud of you for doing this <3 i hope you find a friend is us <warm hugs>

@comfyblanket90

welcome friend