Healing

Over the past five years, I've faced a lot of challenges, but things are finally starting to fall into place. That said, there are still areas in my life where I'm struggling, and I'm working hard to improve. One of my biggest challenges has been picking the right partner. I tend to rush into relationships rather than taking the time to truly date, and this often leaves me feeling unhappy or stuck with someone who isn't supportive, still stuck in their past, or always dealing with issues they can't move past. I've realized that ultimately, I can't blame anyone but myself for the patterns I've allowed. I'm focused on healing, and right now, I'm doing well in school. But I constantly have to remind myself not to let others or external situations get to me, which can be difficult when people seem to provoke reactions just to get a rise out of you. I know I'll find my "king" one day, but I was mistaken in thinking my current situation was the right one. It’s hard to let go of someone you care about, but deep down, I feel we're not moving forward. He often makes me feel low or like I'm not a good woman, and that’s not something I need in my life. I also recognize that I need to work on my communication. Sometimes, when I'm stressed or angry, I have outbursts that can be disrespectful or hurtful, and I'm actively working on improving that. What I truly wish for is someone mature, who loves me for who I am and shows that love in a meaningful way.