My story. Thank you for the pride everyone in this community gives me

Hey! As a 14 year old, I’ve been questioning myself since I was 12. I always had crushes on guys but when I had just turned 12 I met a girl who became my best best friend. We texted everyday and hung out as often as possible, as she went to another school. I realized like wow I love hanging out with her we really clicked and I feel so free and myself around her. I started watching heart stopper bc it was one of her shows she was watching as well and it kinda opened my eyes. I started questioning and researching for a while I thought I was bi then pan then demiromantic. I was confused because I really thought I was bi but also thought I could be demiromantic. I know for sure I’m bi but I feel like I’m both bi and demiromantic. I don’t know. I just call myself queer to myself bc I’m not super sure. And tbh I don’t have to be. I don’t need to know exactly what is happening to know what I like and don’t. I live in a Christian home where nobody knows except my sister I am queer. my mom thinks all the pride stuff is stupid and I could never tell her. My dad neither but he doesn’t make as much jokes and things about it as my mom as he works at a place with high schoolers/people in college and he is pretty respectful of it and the people who are. Even the other day in my town my sis said they where having a pride parade so we had to go another way my mom was making comments about it being stupid and stuff. I am a Christian and I believe that god forgives all sins and when people say being gay is a sin, They need to remember god forgives that and loves everyone. I am very strong in my faith and I volunteer at the church and with kid events such as vbs and children’s church on Sundays. I am very active in my youth group and my church. I believe you can be queer and still be a Christian. 

For me when I see pride things even tho I know I will never be to a parade, and I will never buy anything pride related, I just see so much community. So much joy. So much Expression. And just so many people free and that is the most important thing to me. I will look up just “pride month” on google every day this month and read the articles and just feel so happy. So thank you everyone for making this possible that me, a closeted 14 year old  can feel so happy and free even though I haven’t told anyone, I feel free to myself for knowing who I am. Feeling free in knowing even though there is so much hate there is a community who loves me even tho they don’t know me.

im sorry if I use terms wrong lol