Crushing on my straight friend

Lmaoo... We're living almost identical lives. I'm having strong feelings for the first time ever for my best friend too who might like my other best friend more than me. I won't blame him if he does i suck at talking aur making others laugh

And i suggest you try taking a little break from your friend and focus on yourself more for sometime, it helps a bit. Maybe meet with other new people to either online or irl, it helps when you realize there are other options too. Getting over won't be easy or quick at all but you'll reach your goal for sure

I've fallen for a couple straight best friends, it doesn't end well. I agree you should take a step back and ask yourself what it is that attracts you to your friend. You can seek out these qualities in others who you know are looking for the same in a relationship. I wish you luck, this is a difficult situation.