Coming Out( kind of)

Since it's Pride month and EVERYONE is talking about it I feel like it's time I share my thoughts. Let's go!

I've always felt different from others viewpoints on sex and gender. I grew up in a very small, rural and conservative family, so being so different from my norms has always felt more normal and honestly rebellious. I remember when I was a kid while on vacation I watched a film where two teenaged girls were kissing and dating and I was like wow that's real that's possible lol.

I consider myself to be nonbinary and trans. I just always sort of knew I was even though I couldn't really talk about it with anyone cause they either disagreed or honestly didn't know. Yet as I grew older I find myself more attracted to like feminine stuff. I've always preferred being around females. I'm struggling constantly to fit in based on the sex I was born as and plus being myself around my friends.  Gender is such a wide and massive spectrum. Figuring out who you exactly are can be challenging, especially without help.

I guess my question is how can I come out without actually coming out?  How do I stop being so afraid to be myself without worrying about how others may feel? No one should feel shame or guilt about who they're. There is a little girl inside of me who desires to be seen and heard. She's ready to be the woman who she was created to be :)