What am i

Hey guys m new here m an 18 y boy i just wanted to tell you that I am very confused about me..what am I about my sexuality and everything its been a week breaking up with my boyfriend it was pretty rough for me it was very toxic one....and now I feel hopeless like literally m not able to think straight or keep my mind at anything...

I feel the only people who are supposed to help me my mom my dad are pushing me away...

i really want to talk to someone 😔