Trying to make plans

Hi, i go by karie but i am a trans man and currently i don't have much support for my plans to transition 

i try to be confident in my identity and tell people to refer to me as he/him or at least anything other than feminine, but i continuously get shot down by people like my mom or friends

i know that changing my identity/transitioning is not just impacting me, but having to figure it out at 16 is impacting me really badly and i dont think the authorities in my life understand that

i dont want my brain is suddenly crash out because i can never be myself - ive been masking as an afab feminine girl for the past 6 years and i dont like it anymore; i think i know what im doing and i'm not taking this lightly as it's had clear effects on my mental health and my view of myself

i end up covering mirrors and not looking at myself often because i can't stand looking at a girl's body

dysphoria is not new for me but it feels more amplified around this time because i'm by myself more and i feel like everyone around me has more freedom than i do, which is really frustrating

i dont want advice because i know i'll never be able to put it into effect on my own

i just want a hug, please

you can call me karie, i don't mind