@RUMBUM hey man, i understand you, really.
i'm transmasc too. i know it's hard, it's such a disgusting feeling to be stuck in your own body. i get it and i'm so sorry you have to deal with this.
but listen, there's no such thing as "i'll never be a real boy". you are a boy. you've always been a boy. no one or nothing can change that part of you. you are who you are and i know i'm some stranger on the internet but you are a man in my eyes. i'm really proud of you for still being here with us even when you're going through this horrible situation.
coming out is tough. you never know how they're going to respond. i came out and it didn't end up too well. you should be careful with who you come out to. and if it's your family you might want to get some clues on how they feel about the whole lgbt and trans thing.
and i'm sorry to hear that your "friend" is treating you like that. they have no right to make you feel that way about your identity. i say *** it. i support you as some random guy on the internet. from one trans guy to another, i'm here for you. i don't know how much i can do but i'm willing to listen if you wanna contact me.
stay strong bro. i know you can do it.