I need help fast 😭😭 🔞🌽 sucks
Sooo…idk where to post this so I’m just gonna like troubleshoot it out. This might be a little 18+ so please be the proper age limit 🙏 I have a question am I still gay if I got turned on by something | watched on 18+ video, it was like animated and it was about a, I know this might be a bad term but "futanari" (for those of you that don’t know it’s a woman with male genitalia most commonly used in like anime or drawing communities) accept she had like a masculine built and energy, like VERY masculine is this weird? Cause I remember if they looked to much like a girl and really feminine id be kinda grossed out, but this was like gender ambiguous idk it was weird. I can't imagine having sex with her even if she has, the masculine energy and male genitalia but idk it aroused me and I watched it a couple times.
I also don't know if my mind is making like a false memory but I remember like searching up the character and imputing my fetishes but I don't think I liked it or felt anything about it. Idk maybe it's like a false memory but idk
Sexuality isn't rigid, discrete blocks. It's more fluid and continuous.
Maybe you want to hear more from someone who identifies with the LGBTQ community more. I consider myself to be fairly solid within the cishet range. Despite that, I remember a friend once describing the type of man she wanted - masculine stereotype a sweaty, dirty work with his hands strong guy. It made me wrinkle my nose a bit, we all get dirty from time to time, but if my husband comes home like that he might get a peck where I stretch my neck out before he goes and showers. I've seen some celebrities who typically express their gender as cisgender and do a genderbender act and I can see the attraction in that. Those few things don't explicitly define my sexuality I don't thin, but they do keep me out of I'm only into super masculine men only part of the spectrum.
I do think media is often a way people first discover some things about their sexuality, because it's easy to explore a wide range and in a safe way. Personally though I would be a bit cautious about relying on media only when trying to figure out what it is you identify with because I think it's normal to that one-sided aspect to be a bit different than real life (fantasies often don't match what we really want in a relationship), plus it also can become less like reality, as is the case with the animation you watched.
Maybe you would be happy in a relationship with someone who isn't cishet. Being open to exploring that in a safe way and determining that is a healthy thing I think.
