Body disphormia and Homosexuality

@Lonelywarrior87

Hey. So nice to see you around here. You pose a great question that seems to really be affecting you, and I imagine is quite personal and affecting to you. I am also sure that you aren't alone in this. It's not far fetched to see how having a negative body self-image and dislike for parts of one own body might link to seeing other bodies as attractive. Its kind of on the premise of wishing for what you dont have that happens across so many lines. Its also understandable that you would question your sexuality with this experince, not sure if its sexual attraction or something else. That can be quite challenging to discern. Sometimes takes a while and be frustrating, but we are here for you along the journey. Im glad you are exploring and trying to understand yourself better.

I feel this everyday, I see beautiful men everyday. Then I look at my self.. I compare. So many time I've been told that I look fine. It's so hard to believe and i dont know why i cant be content. I must be delusional

Yes indeed, I can understand it's a journey you have to take yourself. Take some time to understand yourself better and ask why do you feel this way? Are you really affected by what people think of your body? Why are you not happy with your body? You could also change your perspective - those men with amazing bodies might also be going through mental issues - they could be insecure themselves too - hence perhaps cover up theur insecurities with working out more - sure they physical appearance may improve - but what about their emotional being? Have they healed themselves?

Hope this helps :)

Love & Light

SoulfulListener87