Writing my thoughts out...

I write a journal online via an app called Penzu. I find this very useful.

But I think I will try to add one here too. I find the more I write about things, the clearer I can see ahead.

One thing that I have come to terms with recently is that I need to remove my brother from my life. Unfortunately it took me much too long to realise this.

I am not alone in the family to feel this way. Other family members have said how they feel about him. So I am certain my feelings are not just from me alone.

The problem is that right now I am going through some legal things where I have to communicate with him. But this is nearly over.

And when it is all done I will be able to cut him out of my life forever.

Has anyone had a toxic family member like this?

It's like they are a vampire *** the very life out of you in every meeting and every conversation...

I have friends where I meet them and after seeing them I feel good about seeing them. I feel a sense of fulfillment and joy.

But with my brother it just feels like stress.

Coming to terms with this has been a bit tricky over the years. I kind of denied it and didn't want to believe it.

I believed the whole thing that families must stick together and blood is thicker than water.

But for some family members this is just not true.

I am counting the days. And then I will be free of him forever.