Out of The Corner/In The World
Hi! Some of you might know of my other space here, In the corner. Or just, "the corner" in my head. This is the world! I.e this is me learning to "adult" (what?), get out of my comfort zone, accept my flaws, seek the positives in life, etc etc! My journey out of the comfort zone, basically. And it's going to be rocky, it's going to be real hard, and I'm going to end up in the corner venting about something more times than not, probably, but it's a step, I think.
Let's get out of the corner! (That was kinda cheesy!)
@unassumingEyes
(Oooh I love cheese!)
Hiya Eyes, super proud of youu for taking a step outside the corner and your comfort zone, it can be hard and rocky but someone as wonderfully *hooman* as yourself deserves to experience the world within and around you in full, and that (un)fortunately happens when we step outside and let ourselves to breathe in some outside life too!💖
Out of the corner, but it still is your safe space and you are allowed to use it as you need/ want to.🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou thank you youre so sweet 🥺 🩷 Yaay cheese! Yaaaayyyy us!
@unassumingEyes
Nu, you.💖
I just want to specify, replies are welcome, but if i dont know who you are i probably wont respond. Hope yall can understand!
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I did completely freak out in urdu class today like completely entirely 100% but then my new friend did something nice and idek and it was like smth straight outta some emotional short film about suppoer or smth :') and i completely stopped freaking out so that happened but now im so so tired.
Just hope to talk to uk frnd today bcz she gives me strength 👍👍
I just cried, courtesy of mom. Always hate it when i cry infront of dad (he was on vid call) so i left the room
For like....just...awhile...
Im so so tired rn emotions are too much honestly im learning to process them like i get better with anyone and everyone and everything except mom. Like the anger and sadness with her is just different. Ive been dealing with the normal emotional whipsplashes by just feeling them fully and then imagining just flying away like idk colourful gases
There are no colourful gases when with mom. Just feeling, all consuming.
I apologised to mom last night. Not that I believed a word of the apology. I just said some nonsense about "not communicating clearly" and "accidentally causing a misunderstanding"
I didnt want to either. She was giving me the "silent treatment" (my god, not hearing her yell at me for a whole day? How ever will I survive?)
But dad was worrying from countries away about our fight (unfortunately it happened during a vid call with him) and sis asked me to apologise ("You threw a tantrum-" "Me??" "...You both threw a tantrum but-")
So since the fight wasn't just between mom and I anymore and it was *** sis and dad into the ugly tension that I live in everyday, I decided to swallow both my pride and my conscious, and gave what was, all things considered, a pretty bad apology 😆 but hey, it worked, so there we go, I guess.
I'm failing Urdu. Like actually, genuinely, failing the subject. So Im now spending 99% of my energy on urdu, and guess what? I didnt learn the english test, i got 17/20 in the english test, and mom said "Thats too less for you. Shame on you."
???
Soldier keep on marching on
Head down till the work is done
Waiting on that morning sun
Soldier keep on marching on
- Soldier, by Fleurie
Title: Wise
You call me wise
Another one of your unrealizing lies,
But the least I can do,
For your healing touch,
Your soothing assurances,
Your rational mind,
Your kind love,
Is to give you some hope
So I remain quiet
- unassumingEyes
First time i tried free styling. Made with a close friend in mind. Might send it to her someday, but i dont think its very good xD