Diary of a medical student
Once a studious student, I'm struggling coping up with studies.. feels like I'm better at so many other things than this. I've always been longing for a company to study together.
But, it's now or never. I have to push myself, keep going even when all alone. I will make myself my own companion.
My current Target is gastrointestinal tract. It has 8 subjects, anatomy physiology biochemistry parasitology pharmacology pathology microbiology, i have set a month time to finish it all.
Never have I ever been able to finish my Targets but this won't stop me from trying.
I'll keep posting for myself, to talk to myself.
@CaringHeart123I did it!!!
I passed my year, all praise to Allah.
Now it's CNS and it's even tougher 😅
At times I ask myself.. should I have taken medicine 🥲
@CaringHeart123 hi to myself!
My year is about to end. A month remaining and syllabus piled up more than I had, ever.
I made it last time but this time it just seems impossible. Somewhere inside me I have already given up, closed and confined myself to my room cutting the major part of my personality, being social.
I'm not just crying or looking for validation or just someone to tell me that I can do it.. I talk to myself often and the inner me doesn't need it all.. the rational logical side is running it's calculations all the time.
I just see one thing.. even if I'm gonna fail and be disregarded loose all my respect and fame and the hold I have and cause such a huge suffer to my family.. even if all this is gonna happen (which for sure none is certain) I should just do my best for this month, if for nothing then my own satisfaction. And who knows may Allah turn the tables over and I make it beyond all the odds aameen insha Allah.
