lolita systems diary
entry 1. TW for anyone who reads
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idk what to do anymore yall, ive lost all my friends, been outted to my whole school, when to a mental hospital again, i feel like i cant get better. basically i had a boyfriend he used me my parents found out they put a ristaning order on him. i ended up in a mental hospital got dignoused with osdd 1-b got out even tho i didnt want to leave. lost all my friends becasue im in a homophobic state and my ex outed me to my whole school and i still have to go back to school next week. if i get made fun of one time at that school idk what ima do.
@l0litaSyStem Hey girly I know how you feel! If you ever need to talk I'm here!
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second entry: i (charlie) feel disconnected from the others im the only non fictive, i have no clue who i want to be because everyone else in our system is either a girl or non bianry and i want to be a boy! first the non fictive part well everyone but me and the host are fictives and the host doesnt talk to us much she in a way trys to ingnore us being here- she has collected tthese fictives from shows/movies that comforted her during her trauma her having an deep connection to- i came about i was a listener a friend in her mind i used to never front but out main she started doing some bad things so i started fronting to protect her. second the wanting to be a boy part my system name isnt even charlie its alice but i want to go by charlie because it reminds me of leafs blowing in the wind and i like that its peaceful i want to see myself as a boy i want to have a masc prosenting voice i want to have shorrt hair i want to wear suits and look handsome-
